How Felicity Recovered with us after Trying to Take her own Life
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Felicity came to our services in a state of crisis after attempting suicide. She moved into our crisis house in Sheffield (pictured). This is her story.
I believe that many of my problems stem from my past. Going through two years of physical trauma played havoc with my physical and mental health. I was so tired of being in pain, and it took a huge toll on my wellbeing. The final straw was having to spend nine weeks in hospital for a range of stomach and chest problems. My mental health went downhill, and I tried to take my own life.
I was given a Community Mental Health team, but my downwards spiral continued and I was referred to Rethink Mental Illness's Sheffield crisis house. By the time that I got there, I was not in a good way. I have never been so physically or mentally unwell, and I was feeling overwhelmed.
The staff were very patient with me. I was initially very reserved, but after a while I began to come out of my shell, and started talking to them about how I was feeling. They took so much time to care for me. It’s normal to stay for five nights, but they let me stay a bit longer.
There have been occasions during the really bad times where I haven’t wanted to be here anymore, but the staff always talked me out of things. It’s not overstating the matter to say that they literally saved my life.
After another period in the crisis house I felt that I'd got on top of things and around August, I decided to apply for a job, but it was too much too soon, and I ended up in A&E following another suicide attempt. I returned to the crisis house before I’d even started my job.
I left the house and began my new job but sadly, I overextended myself and had a breakdown. Following a procedure in hospital that resulted in a seizure, I once again attempted to take my life.
This was too much, and I was placed under section. This was one of the worst experiences of my life. The hospital felt like a prison. I didn’t feel as though I could approach the staff about my problems. I was wholly reliant on the Sheffield Helpline instead; they got me through this tough period in my life.
I’ve since been diagnosed with post traumatic stress disorder and borderline personality disorder. I was crushed when I first received the diagnosis, but it’s actually been a really positive thing. I’m now on medication, which has helped me a lot, and I’m feeling a lot happier.
I now fundraise for Rethink Mental Illness and the crisis house that gave me so much support. Without their help, I genuinely don’t think I’d be here today.
Even though I’m in a good place I know that there’s a lot more work to be done. Sometimes when I tell people that I have a mental illness, they back away from me. The lack of awareness surrounding mental health means that many misconceptions still exist, and I want to help change this.
Felicity's story has led to her being in a better place but many others are going through their own crisis as we speak. Find out more about our fundraising and our crisis houses.