Rethink Remembers - Adam
Adam was a talented boy who grew up to be a clever man. He excelled at many things, especially music, that really was his favourite. Although as far as he was concerned his biggest achievement was his two children, Emily and Edward. Becoming a Father had always been a long held dream.
Adam was a Dad and until unwell, worked as a Police Sergeant.
I believe Adam's mental health problems started during his senior school years. Adam had seen GP's and had other appointments over the years but the help available was not good. Adam was diagnosed with anxiety and depression, he also developed OCD and went on to experience a psychotic break down. I feel Adam hiding his problems and trying to carry on was partly to blame for his illness worsening.
To this day it is still hard to believe that he took his own life. It happened at our family home. For so long afterwards we were all in shock, Adam would never have wanted to cause such hurt. I lost a part of myself that night, my brother.
I spent a lot of time replaying the days, hours and minutes leading up to Adam's death, looking for reasons why and trying to remember our last words, our last hug. It's like looking out of the rear view window of a car, watching someone standing alone in the middle of the road as you are driven away, seeing them left behind in the distance. I'd go through old calendars, diaries and especially text messages - daily at first - its strange the things you think, feel and do after such a traumatic event.
The years have passed and things really have changed since I first got involved with Rethink Mental Illness. I have noticed that mental health is being talked about more. I think of my brother and all of the other people out there just like him that need help from organisations like Rethink and from people that understand and care. I think we must all try to do or give all we can to help. As a family, we set up a tribute fund, it was easy to do. We thought that at the same time as keeping Adam's memory alive, any money raised would be used to help others as well as raise mental health awareness.
Rethink Mental Illness is also the chosen charity of my Dance School, so any money the children raise will also go towards helping Rethink with their good work.
I have learnt that we can never know what is happening inside another persons head, unless they feel able to speak freely.
This is what we must fight for.
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