[LisaB]

Hello there, not really sure what to write here, new to this. Could anyone explain how all this works? Thanks!

[Tincan]

you can write whatever you like within reason just write in your thoughts and feelings how your life affects you from day to day and the influences on your life. its about trying to help and support each other through our personal experiences. being open and being able to talk , hope this is off help lisa

[ChrisB]

As tincan says, just tell us about you and your "stuff" if you want to.

Have a read through the recent topics, see if anything seems familiar, you may want to reply perhaps in support or to help someone else - you will be amazed how cool it is to share and look out for each other!

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LisaB, on 09 April 2012 - 12:16 AM, said:

Hello there, not really sure what to write here, new to this. Could anyone explain how all this works? Thanks!

welcome to rethink

[LisaB]

Thanks for replying I have had a look through some of the other threads, it's a really helpful site. Basically I came on here because I have depression and have been started on medication and and just finding it difficult sometimes to understand what's going on. I often feel responsible for the feelings of my family and love ones as I realise that they find it difficult to know that I feel sad sometimes. I am coping much better than I was but a lot of the time as soon as I stop what I'm doing or it's quiet the bad feelings rush back to me. I'm just hoping that soon enough I will start to feel happy again and I'm a little scared that I won't. Thanks for listening, hope you are all well

[Tincan]

LisaB, on 09 April 2012 - 11:58 PM, said:

Thanks for replying I have had a look through some of the other threads, it's a really helpful site. Basically I came on here because I have depression and have been started on medication and and just finding it difficult sometimes to understand what's going on. I often feel responsible for the feelings of my family and love ones as I realise that they find it difficult to know that I feel sad sometimes. I am coping much better than I was but a lot of the time as soon as I stop what I'm doing or it's quiet the bad feelings rush back to me. I'm just hoping that soon enough I will start to feel happy again and I'm a little scared that I won't. Thanks for listening, hope you are all well

hi from my point of view and experiences keeping busy is a grt tool to use to cope with depression the less time to think the better . u seem to be in the early stages of your recovery and ur always afraid of the worst havng another episode ....you always expect the worst and that is not necessarily what is going to happen. we live in fear of regression like we are on a tight rope and the only way is down. i think we are like building blocks tho each block is an experience if we manage and why not to get over that experience you can learn from that 1 to build on top of it and lay another block ....the more confident and the more you learn the higher those block grow and and faster. the fragility will go and you will be strong . you av to have and learn and grow you are your personal project on a journey of self awareness. you will get there tho and be the person u want to be .

[ChrisB]

LisaB, on 09 April 2012 - 11:58 PM, said:

I am coping much better than I was but a lot of the time as soon as I stop what I'm doing or it's quiet the bad feelings rush back to me. I'm just hoping that soon enough I will start to feel happy again and I'm a little scared that I won't. Thanks for listening, hope you are all well

I was saying something very similar to my care worker today, I explained it as having someone stalking me, a shadow behind me. If I'm busy I can keep a few steps ahead, but if i get tired, stressed or unwell, the shadow catches up and everything gets darker.

But what I have learnt is that you cannot simply try and stay busy, its physically draining, so sometimes you need to enjoy being physically still, perhaps by reading, drawing, writing a poem etc.

You will be amazed how creativity can light up your space when it feels darkened.

[Tincan]

ChrisB, on 12 April 2012 - 08:45 PM, said:

I was saying something very similar to my care worker today, I explained it as having someone stalking me, a shadow behind me. If I'm busy I can keep a few steps ahead, but if i get tired, stressed or unwell, the shadow catches up and everything gets darker.

But what I have learnt is that you cannot simply try and stay busy, its physically draining, so sometimes you need to enjoy being physically still, perhaps by reading, drawing, writing a poem etc.

You will be amazed how creativity can light up your space when it feels darkened.

i agree chris its in practical if u think u can be busy all the time and like u say draining ....just think wen u are doing very little draw from ur experiences of how to cope ...i find myself coaching myself thru those harder times. i like to write puting my thoughts on paper find that very therapeutic .

[LisaB]

Thankyou both for your replies, I have actually been trying to be more creative recently, I have a friend who has a little studio for her art and I went there to paint a picture, I lost hours just sitting and painting, I found it so therapeutic. I am trying to do things like a bit of writing and reading. You are right though, sometimes it is exhausting just to keep moving all the time and occasionally I will just stop and stare and be still. My partner is trying to get me to be more involved in doing things and make plans for activities but I tend to find the idea of planning something really unnerving. I have found that I'm trying to push myself to have fun but that "shadow" is always there and it is tiring always trying to shake it off. This generally tends to lead me into the slump of sleeping all the time because eventually I give up. It can be difficult to find a balance. I really appreiate your insights on this it's very helpful to have people that understand thankyou

[mias]

Yes, to all the above. Those building blocks can be heavy old things sometimes hey. And that Shadow a pesky old thing.This may not help but I still cannot be in silence. I am better than I was (I think) but if alone or driving alone I have to have the radio on, talking away, that way I listen to the presenters and their subjects and not my own thoughts.I have it on right now.