[leonora]

yorkiegal, on 24 February 2012 - 11:03 PM, said:

when my diagnosis was depression i had a sympathetic response from the doctors and pdocs. trouble was that over the years i kept relapsing into depression and the therapy didn't work.

then i was given the BPD diagnosis. I say 'given'. they wrote it on my discharge form from hospital. nobody actually thought to explain it to me and i had to go home and look it up.

When i applied for my notes they made interesting reading. Turned out the reason I am denied a cpn or any help from the crisis team is because people with bpd react badly to relationships ending and so they thought it wasn't worth the risk of giving me a cpn who wouldn't be there forever.

After being in hospital for a month they also put on my notes that i wouldn't benefit from a long hospital stay in the future due to being bpd and manipulative on the ward.

since then, no therapy. But after hearing from friends with bpd about how helpful an anti psychotic can be i managed to see my pdoc again and she put me on quetiapine. She added 'psychotic symptoms' to my diagnosis.

She has repeatedly told me and put in my notes that i show no sign of mental illness. Even though for years I was diagnosed with depression.

My gp doesn't even want to see me anymore and told me to just go onto a repeat prescription. So nobody actually checks to see if i'm ok. I just get a reminder for a blood test every year.

I'm all therapied out though lol so that doesn't bother me. tbh i think my bpd symptoms have reduced a lot in the last year, but the psychotic symptoms are still there on occasion. I would much prefer a non PD diagnosis but at the same time I accept that I do exhibit a lot of bpd traits. I just wish it was seen as a mental illness in the UK as it is in other countries. It's that whole feeling of ''you're not ill you're just bad'' that you get from the health professionals. Like the depression isn't real.

[leonora]

Hi,

I am interested in what you say, I have been "depressed" for 12 years, I have the suspicion that there is more to my diagnosis than meets the eye, (or is that my paranoia) lol. I have physical disabilities also and I have had been treated abissmally in hospital when I had ortho surgery, the staff were obviously hostile to me. I wonder whether it is possible to be diagnosed BPD and not be told, I asked my GP my mental health diagnosis he said anxiety, but I am cynical, I seem to be regarded as a trouble maker.
Any input gratefully recieved.

Thanks Leonora.

[manic666]

anxierty can be the cause of many illnesses , i was struck off a doctors surgery , because i thought i had every illness in the book , they must of been well pissed off with me. But you get psychosmatic illnesses that are real in themself but not to a doctor. So they think your a time waster when really your wired with anxierty an depression. This happened to me many many years ago when mental illness wasnt mentioned at a gp,s. But if its still on record,s who ever you see will think your a hypochondriac an treat you as one. Its sad i no but that,s how it was an mabye still is, Now i dont no whats psychosmatic an what isnt , till i collaspe or have a breakdown. We will never be fully understood ,lifes a bummer

[toffee]

Hi,

It is very possible to be given a diagnosis and not be told about it.
Request to see your full medical records. Interestingly, while they justify not telling you about the diagnosis on the basis it might upset you, they rarely blank it out when you request your records.

When you have your records if they have given you a diagnosis write them a letter asking for the criteria you meet for it and express disappointment that their secrecy has prevented you from accessing information about your illness so you coudl best help yourself.