Esme's Blog
Hi I’m Esme. I am a crazy cat lady, or at least that’s what most people call me. I love music and spend most of my time singing or humming to myself. My little secret (or not so little now) is that I have two tattoos, one of which covers my side almost! I love to be out in the countryside and I have spent many days battling with myself to move from the rug on my floor; my depression quite likes it there....
I have suffered from low mood and negative self esteem from a very young age with me first self harming when I was 8yrs old. I have worked through a lot of my problems by myself with the help of friends and a good bit of stage performing and singing my heart out in the shower. I have learnt to cope with the days when it physically hurts to get out of bed and I learnt to accept that some days I feel like something the cat dragged in. I did get diagnosed with depression and once took medication but generally I stuck with counselling and talking to anyone that would listen. Now my demons barely bother me but from time to time they do still raise their ugly heads. For me the reason I am here is not for my own mental health problems but for my friends who suffer from them. My best friend has schizophrenia but if you ask her she prefers to say she is a voice hearer. I have supported her throughout the years I have known her and seen all of the problems she has faced and I want to stand up for her and the thousands of people out there who are not receiving the support they need. That’s why I love being an activist because it gives me the ability to talk to people about how they can make a difference and reduce the stigma that smothers mental illness.
