Apathy

03 February 2009 | 05:45 PM

Ebony

Topics: Someone who has experienced mental illness, Medication and therapies, Physical health

It started with the lack of a referal to a diet and fitness coach, the one my well being check discovered hadnt been done last year. Guess what ,it looks like she forgot to do it again this year!

No referal was made last year after my well being check and it 's the same this year. I dont know why I attend them the staff are useless. I've still got 19 st and in need of a hernia repair which they wont do unless I manage to loose weight. Any way I 've been really down lately, not bothering to go out. My creative writing class was cancelled because the tutor was ill, then the next one I didnt feel like going to. The house is in a mess and everything is going down hill.

I mentioned to my CPN how I was feeling and she said perhaps CBT would help but that there was a 2 yr wait, so there was no point in making a referal. Perhaps I should just pull myself together. The mentoring group came and went I couldn't be bothered going in the end I just feel that the system lets you down .So what's the point, everyone has a jobs worth attitude and no committment, there is no point in helping them to complete their statistics so they get more funding to do nothing.

Perhaps my meds need changing but I dread asking and going through all the swings and round abouts that causes. It took me ages and 9 mths in hospital under section last time I changed my meds. It makes a real mess of your family life my little girl still hasnt gotten over it. Hubby has depression now and suffers with anxiety I dont feel able to tell him how I feel. If I want to change anything he has panic attacks.

It makes me angry when so called professionals let you down. It wouldnt matter so much if I didnt have schizophrenia but I depend on them to do their job properly so that I can live mine without stress. Now I worry about my hernia and dying on the opperation table because I have diabetes and am over weight. I dread every day and food is a major hassle, what to eat and what not to eat. Managing anti psychotic induced diabetes is no picnic either. The meds mess with your sugar levels and your metabalism and everything is a headache. The professionals forgot to mention I could get diabetes when they gave me anti psychotics and they forgot to give support and advice when I got it.

Who suffers from Apathy is it me or the mental health workers!

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apathy

..i also know how horrible it is to feel like you're a burden to your family, but try and keep it in mind that they love you, regardless of how you're doing. It can sometimes be of little comfort, (which can make you feel worse still) but they will always be there for you- you have to press for your needs to be met from your team-if not for you, then for your family- they wouldn't want you to be suffering the way that you are, and they certainly wouldn't want you doing it alone because you thought you were being a burden. Stay strong and take care x

2. At 12:49 PM on 26 February 2009 Elle Belle wrote:

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Hey Ebony, i'm really sorry you're having such a rubbish time; life with a mental illness can suck so much. i don't have anything to say which can make it easier for you at this time, i would suggest you ask about a review of your meds- they may be helping the psychotic symptom, but antipsychotics are typically linked to weight gain, so maybe yours aren't helping with your weight issues. It is clear that the link between your weight and your mental health is a significant one, as it is making you both down and anxious, therefore you have good grounds for saying they need to be changed- you shouldn't be this unhappy. Psychiatrists tend to forget to treat you holisitically-as a whole person- they can't just 'fix' one part of you and forget about everything else, even if they could argue that your weight isn't in their remit. i know that it is frustrating to wait for therapy-i was on a list for 18 months and to have it just brushed aside must be so disheartening- hypnosis has had a lot of press recently for cravings and weight management, and can also be used as an aid to depression and anxiety- maybe you could look into accessing this? i don't know...

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